I'm pissed today.  Or somewhat.  Ok, picture how I had to go to my girl's birthday thing, ok?  So, I went, came back, get in my pj's and got ready for bed.  Ok, Luis calls and tells me he's at Alejandra's house cause everyone is about to watch a movie...  Ok, he starts trying to make me feel bad (you know, the same bullshit Carlos tried to do to me) by saying things like "I know you don't want to come out with me," and shit like that. And  I hate it when people beg me.  So I started fussing at him telling him that he knew that I was going to my friend's thing, and I'm in my pj's, and he needs to stop begging me.  Well, he sort of apologized and told me that he'd call me later.  I asked him if he promised, and he said he promised he'd call.  Ok...  one o'clock in the fuckng morning I'm up, still waiting for this nigga to call.  At that point I give up, turn off my computer and CD player, turn off my phone, and go to sleep.  The thing I hate the most is when people lie to me or break their promise.  He really pissed me off.  I'm not talking to him today.  My phone is gonna stay off.  I might talk to him tomorrow if he calls, if I'm not mad anymore. 

But anyways, I'm gonna let ya'll go, cause I need to let my anger out. 

Peace,

Teddy

Well...  me and Luis are official...  He asked me out again yesterday and I finally told him yeah.  (The first time, he felt boo koo slammed, and yesterday before we hooked up officially, everybody was making fun of how I slammed him.  My poor baby, I'm not gonna let them tease him like that anymore.  Lol.)  Anyways...  He like, didn't kiss me as much as he did yesterday (which, now, I feel bad for complaining about it, cause I did enjoyed it), but at least we can say we're official now. 

Bra, fucking Luis Loo (you know, the nigga I messed with while I was in Honduras) found out I'm going out with Luis now, and he's being a fucking drama queen, saying shit like "It was like love at first site, but it didn't exist," and "She stole my heart and never returned it," and shit like that.  Bra, wtf?  Doesn't this nigga have a girlfriend or something? Why he still sweating me?  This is the shit that I can't stand.  Look, he was just a summer fling to me, he meant nothing to me.  He should've figured that out by now.  Whatever.  I don't associate with that loser no more.

As for me, I'm not concerned about anything else.  I got my man, and he's all I'm worried about right now, so any other niggas who are trying to holla at me better fuck the back up.  But anyways, I'm tired as hell, so night people.

Te quiero mucho,

Teddy

Omg...  Luis wouldn't stop kissing me today.  I mean, we talked, but everytime I'm in the middle of saying something, this man comes and leans into me to kiss me.  He must be addicted to me...  Well, he did tell me that he loved my lipgloss for its flavor (hershey's chocolate, cha heard me?  Lol!)  I'm a little scared though, cause this man told me he wanted something serious and I don't know if I'm capable of that.  I mean, I want to, but I never had a serious relationship.  So, I have no experience with that.  Or being in love.  Lol.  I've only done it to just play the game...  But I guess now, I don't know.  I'll just have to see where it goes...

OMG, here's proof of it all... this is what he wrote on my myspace comments... 

"Hey baby wat r u doing well i just got off of work and all i was thinking of was you cuz u stay on my mind i don't know y but u do .u kno that u motivate me to go to school cuz if it was not 4 u i would be x out by now cuz i neva go well u owe me a coment back so u better give me mines .i hope that in the future that me and u stay together 4 eva me and you have alot in common and there some thing bout u que me anamore and that y i'm wit u now well baby kall me when u get a chance"

Don't it give you the chiils?  Omg...  If he's being for real...  I don't know what'd I'd do...  Nobody has ever treated me the way he treats me...  He treats me like a queen... (Like I deserve to be.)  I hope it lasts, I really need that special someone.

Bueno mi gente aki te dejo porque I want to go daydream about my man. 

Hugs and kisses,

Teddy

So0o0o0o0o0o0o...  Luis didn't come to school today because he had a dentist appointment (he told me the night before).  I still talked to him on the phone for like 30 minutes on the phone though.  Lol.  He said he was pissed because he wasn't at school today cause he wanted to see me.  O0o0o0o0o0o0oh...  Picture how he had been texting Adrianna C. (cause I told him I didn't run up my bill on text messages) and I came up.  He said that he missed his "baby" and that he really, really, really liked me, and when we start going out, that he'd treat me like a princess.  AaAaAaAaw!  I owe him like a hundred hugs and kisses now.  O0o0o0o0o0oh yeah, we also made this bet, whoever pulls the others hair the most gets whatever they want...  If I win, I get a massage, but if he wins, he gets a kiss...  the longest kiss I ever kissed...  Well, I hope I win, cause I don't feel like kissing for two hours straight... my lips'll get chapped!  Lol!  (PS.  He told me "te quiero mucho"...  think that meant anything?)

Oh, yeah, Adrianna C. and Hansen go out now.  She got Hansen set as "MAH BABY" on her phone.  Well, I'm happy for her, but she needs to stop rushing me and Luis, on the real.  Lol.

Oh, now even LAURENCE is trying to mess with me.  He came up to me after 2nd period telling me he wants me to be his "boo" even though I told him I had a boyfriend.  Then, turns out, he WORKS with Luis.  Omg...  If Luis knew how he was trying to mess with me...  Omg.  Lol!  I'm keeping my mouth shut. 

Well, anyways, gotta go, cause I'm so tired of these guys sweating me. 

Peace,

Teddy

OMG...  I think we're moving kinda fast...  Don't play like you don't know, you know who I'm talkin bout...  Bra, at lunch, Luis kept like, putting his arm around me, and ticklin me and shit.  I had put my hand on my stomach so that he would stop ticklin me and shit, and this nigga starts holdin my hand... bra, this man is sweatin me hard.  On the real.  Lol.  But I kinda do lead him on, so it's basically my fault.  Oh, yeah, we kissed today too.   

Allen... was tryin to mess with me too, bra, on the real.  Me, Allen, Samantha, and Luis were going to get lunch, and I was holdin Samantha's hand and Allen says, "I'm so jealous Mayra because you're holdin another girl's hand." I had told him "You want me to hold your hand too?" And I started holdin his hand, and Luis is like "No man if anyone, you should be holdin MY hand" (you see how I got these people sweatin me? Lol.)  Then, I had asked Allen if he had my CD player, and he said it was still in the car, and if I wanted to go (just "me and him alone"), and jajaja, my dumbass said aight whatever.  But he didn't have my CD player, I was boo koo mad.  Luis got kinda mad, and I saw him talk to Allen (I think to find out what happend and to tell him not to mess with me, but yeah, whatever). I'm such a pimp bra.  On the real.  Lol.

Oh yeah, Mario had FINALLY called today.  This nigga...  Lol.  He was flirtin with me too.  On the real.  Lol.  Oh, man... what I'm gonna do with all these guys?

But anyways, I gotta go, I'm tired.  All that pimpin wears a girl out.  Lol.

Con mucho cariño,

Teddy

I'm so pissed right now.  For boo koo reasons.  Well, yesterday, I went to the cell for the first time since the hurricane because Luis and Gaby had visited me Thursday to invite me to it.  So, I went, prayed and all that shit, then I get home and get online.  Ok, about thirty minutes later, Saulo gets online and I IM him telling him wuzzup and all that shit.  I start conversation, you know, and he don't answer me.  And the few times that he did, all he said was "yea".  I'm like, nigga wtf?  Here I am, being friendly to you, and you can't even be nice enough to conversate back.  I mean, it's not like I'm trying to holla at the nigga, I'm just saying wutsup, and be cool with the nigga, since he wanted me to go to the cell so bad.  The least he could tell me is, "Man, I'm glad you came," or something.  But this nigga is so full of himself, he gotta act like he don't give a fuck bout anyone, you feel me? 

And my mom is tripping.  Picture how, we were going to the Latina store, because the sell sopa de caracol, and we all been craving that shit, so we were getting in the car, and I realized I forgot my cell phone.  I ask her if I could go get it real quick before we go, and she's like, "only if you got your keys with you," when her keys wasn't even in the damn ignition yet.  So, of course, I get pissed, cause I was expecting a call, and knowing her ass, we probably would've been out all fucking day.  And then, she started fussing at me, telling me I don't deserve shit, then fucking wheels the car around and brings us back home.  And then I try apologizing to the bitch, you know, since it's the "right thing" and then she goes, "no, don't talk to me. I'm very mad at you."  Wtf?  This is fucking bullshit.  Whatever, she do whatever the fuck she wants.  I'm not talking to the bitch, she knows I can hold a grudge, so she better not expect to get shit from me.

But, anyways, bra, I got Luis wrapped around my finger.  I got this nigga calling me 24/7.  It's not even funny.  He's like, sending me texts, calling me at midnight while I'm asleep and shit.  And my ass is enjoying it.  I love it when boys sweat me.  Jejejejejejeje.  But I guess that's why I didn't like the relationship I was in with Carlos.  Cause that nigga didn't give a fuck, you know?  He only called once a day, at the same time, every fucking day.  It got old.  But whatever.  Nigga ain't worth it.  The lame ass nigga.

Loving the drama,

Teddy

MaAaAaAaAan...  Today everybody was so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o crazy...  Especially me.  Lol.  But I'm always crazy, ok?  I had everybody laughing, and with Adrianna C. there...  Lmao.  It was too crazy.  Rene especially was telling me how his friends were all laughing and shit, and he was like "Man, that's my cousin."  Lol. 

It's really obvious that Luis is trying to mess with me.  Ok, picture how he asks me out to the movies for Saturday and I told him I don't know, I'll see.  Then, he asks me if he can see my lipgloss to see what it tasted like.  I'm not that fucking dumb; Israel tried the same shit last year.  He wanted to know what flavor so he could kiss me.  He even called me today telling me that he's interested.  So, you know, I guess I'll talk, I mean, I don't have no problem, you know?  But yeah...

Damn...  Iris... and Krystye...  were fucking blowed today...  Damn...  But I can't believe there doing that shit in school...  That's too special... They can get caught, mAaAaAaAn!  But oh, well that's them.

Oh, yeah, you know how that nigga Brandon had turned me down YESTERDAY.  Well, the nigga IMs me telling me he wants me to suck his dick.  I'm like "nah son, you got a g/f", you know, the same shit he told me yesterday.  Then, he told me no, they weren't going out, they were just messing.  Wtf?  And then he asks me if I would have phone sex with him.  I tell him, "no, you got iliana".  But this nigga is working my nerves bra!  It's like, he don't know what he wants.  Whatever.  He needs to realize that he had his chance and he lost it.  So fuck it.

Oh well, que sera, fucking sera.

La niña bella,

Teddy

Damn...  I can't help it!  Today, I was so fucking horny!!!!!!    And it didn't help that Jose and Luis kept messing with me.  I'm sure if they knew I was horny...  they probably would've tried to do more.  Lmao.  Oh, yeah, and Allen said I looked "pretty" today  (yea, after every fucking time he pulled my motherfuckin hair! Lol!)...   Like I don't everyday!  Lmao.  But, maAaAaAan, I was so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o horny today it isn't even funny.  I need to get me some soon maAaAaAan!  Lol.  But I'm working on it, don't worry. 

Anyways, I been talking to Luis and he's been tellin me everything about why he's beefin with Devin.  (Devin's always fightin his best friend over a girl)  More reason for me not to like Devin.  Really, Luis is a really cool nigga, so Ima see what's up with him.

DAMN!  Brandon just fuckin turned me down!  Wtf?  How many niggas turn ME down?  This nigga's dumb...  Oh, well.  Who else can I mess with now?    Boo koo other niggas trust me, I gots me.

Anyways, I gotta go, cause I'm talkin to bookoo other people right now, so I'll see ya laterz.

Paz afuera,

Teddy

Man... Today...  Was...  Boring...    Turns out, Adrianna C. didn't come to school today, and usually I'm so bored without her, you know?  I guess after the whole Wayne thing (I can't believe he let a ho come between them like that, though, the stupid bitch, he doesn't know what the fuck he lost) she probably didn't feel like coming to school.  I don't blame her.  I wouldn't either.  But anyways, I was so0o0o0o tired today, because the night before, I had been catching up on all the work I didn't do the night before (cause my stupid ass was crying AGAIN), and I was up late.  Then, to top it all off, I got MORE homework today, como nadie en esa escuela tiene vida, and I've been working all day today on an essay and studying for four tests for tomorrow.  Oh, yeah, and we had a "pop quiz" in another one of our classes today, so that's just adding on to my stress.   

Anyways, OMFG I had no idea Brandon G. had a girlfriend...  I had just found out yesterday, and I don't know if he was going out with her when he had asked me to make out with him.  But basically, I'm like "oh fucking well" because I really don't care cause it's not like I like the nigga, all I want is someone to mess with to bring my esteem up again, you know what I mean?  It's not like he cares, cause he told me himself that he'd cheat on his girlfriend, he wouldn't care...  So0o0o0o0o0o0o0o why should I?  It's not like she's here, she's in fucking Cali because of the whole Hurricane Katrina thing.  I'm not worried bout a damn thing.

So, anyways I gotta go cause I got some sit-ups to do (to keep my sexy ass slim) so I'll talk to ya peoplez laters.

La Nena Real,

Teddy

Today was ok.... I guess.  Oh, picture how, me, Adrianna C., and Samantha were waiting in line in the cafeteria, and we saw Carlos T. (bitch has been stalking me I swear!) picking up trash because he had a dress code violation.  Me and Adrianna started pointing at him and laughing and telling him to "pick that fuckin' trash up" (Adrianna was the one who cursed, not me! Lol!).  He was like "aight I got ya'll".  Anyways, I couldn't help but say/think, that nigga needs to put HIS ass in that trashbag, the trailer trash whore.    Hum bra, what can I say?  I hate him with ALL my guts! Lol.

Anyways, I have gotten so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o tired of girls coming up to me about Rene, it's not funny.  But you know what?  It's okay, cause he told me that he has boo koo people coming up to him telling him that HIS cousin (me) is crazy. Well, if the shoe fits, Im gonna bust it, okiz?  Lol. 

Anyways mi gente, aki te dejo becuase I really don't have as much to tell you as I wanted to.

Kisses to all of you,

Teddy